my place.
I know my blog is dead. Rarely, or never has pictures. I blog boring stuffs. Still, I love to blog eventhough I know there might even be nobody reading my blog.
Oh well, I blog to express anyway. Not to impress.
So if you find my blog is boring and lame or too emo, dont bother criticising because I wont give a shit about it.
{ Friday, January 23, 2009
7:20 PM }
It sucks when your handphone is starting to give you problems. It kept on switching off by itself and especially when replying messages or answering calls or calling people. It sucks when you don't have the appetite to eat even when you see delicious food at home. It sucks when you really miss someone and you didn't get to meet them. It sucks when you lie alot and people don't trust you anymore. It sucks when the person you want to talk to is making you feel very bad and sicked. It sucks when the person you don't even know start messaging you and wanted to try and act all cool and charming and whatever shit. It sucks when there's no one entertaining you. It sucks when you don't have a listening ear to all your problems when you need one urgently. It sucks when you look into the mirror and you see yourself like an ugly monster eventhough how much you tried to dress up and make up. It sucks when you look into the mirror and you see yourself very fat. It sucks when you see a group of M&Ms staring at you as if they wanna pick a fight. It sucks when your body feels so weak but you just wanna go out and have fun. It sucks when you feel like you need to cry on someone's shoulder but no one's around. It sucks when your body is aching and you have a bad headache but you can't go to sleep because there's something you really want to do but its impossible. It sucks when your mind is burden with a lot of thinking and problems and you can't concentrate on your work well. It sucks when you feel like a total bitch cheating on someone. It sucks when you feel like no one is on your side. It sucks when you feel like everyone is looking down on you. It sucks when today is not on your side. It sucks to feel very emotional and depressed.
Life has always been a huge roller coaster ride for me, full of ups and downs, making me start to get tired of it.
I feel like getting love drunk, falling into this beautiful dream and not coming out to face the reality.
