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So if you find my blog is boring and lame or too emo, dont bother criticising because I wont give a shit about it.

owner Once bitten, twice shy Life has always been a huge roller coaster ride for me, full of ups and downs, making me start to get tired of it. I feel like getting love drunk, falling into this beautiful dream and not coming out to face the reality. Ibniputra's Syahidah

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To think about it, some people who are in my life now as my friends, so have similarities with the bestest mates I've ever had last time. Which makes me miss them more. (':

Honestly, I can't wait to meet every single one of them. And the only time will be during our jalan raya. But till now, our plans have been quite a shitty one as we still can't get a day that we all can get together and go out. ): All our they clashes. Especially me, I'm the odd one out when everybody else agrees on one day already. I had to change it and caused everything to become one big mess. Unfortunately my dearest lovely friends, I still won't turn down my very important date next friday. So sorry. Much misses.

XOXO.

Had a great time with baby todaaaay! :D
Anyways, AKU DAH START LAPAAAARRRRR...
Grrrr... K la, wanna go call my bubu then carik makan kat dapor. (:

AKU BINGETTTTTT! Marah nie. My house is in a big fucking mess! Honestly, I have to say it stinks. Nobody ever wants to clean the house. Grrrrrr.... And sister's big fucking luggage since weeks ago is still stucked in the living room for maybe the spiders to breed or till her next holiday. My brother just loves to make the living room like his own bedroom by hanging all his clothes, towels and everything else on the sofa! Omggggggg, yes I am such a lazy pig. But at least I took an effort to sometimes clean the house. Howeverrrrrrr, its just a waste of my fucking time 'cause wanna know why? It'll be back to the normal condition within less than a week. But still, I just feel so super annoyed with the condition of the stuffy house, uncleaned and smelly. Omg, please give me strength.

Anyways, I am still sicked. I am broke. Just waiting for my daily allowances from mom.
On the brighter side, I got myself a new bag. ^.^

Okay, Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan to all the Muslims out there. (: I was shocked on how fast the time flies and that it's already fasting month. Although I'm not that religious, I somehow find that I quite like the feeling of fasting month(excluding the fact that I'll be hungry). I dont know why, I like the feeling. Maybe because its the feeling of eating with my family together on one dining table, or at least with my mother at home. I'll do my best in making myself to fast this month, like how I did last year. (:

Hookaaay. I am sleepy. I am sick. Down with very bad cough and flu, and I aint gonna take any MCs within these two weeks of attachment. I dont want my Saturdays to get burnnnnn!

I miss my boyfriend lah, so very much you knowww.. Every week, I'm only looking forward to Fridays so that I get to see him. I miss the times we're still new together, sooooo very mushy and fun. We always spend our days together doing the things we love. I love the day when we decided to dress up and go to town. I miss everything. I miss him, Ibniputra.

Super hungryyyyyyyy! Tak boleh tido! ):

Not sleeping yet. Bearing all the pain in the middle of the night. Sometimes, I just wish people could do something for me but that just wont happen. Dear boyfriend, even you left me for something else tonight. I feel so unimportant and unsignificant with the people around me. I failed alot, in fact too much. And I'm gonna fail throughout my whole life. Dont talk about faith or hope or whatever bullshit, I dont even have one. It is stupid to have one, because nothing will ever be true.

Anyways, to somehow help myself smile I went through facebook and I suddenly saw Emma Watsons name. Which reminds me of something in secondary school which was really funny. It helps, a little only.

Okay, I am super excited looking at pictures of Rahman and wife's newborn baby. Super cute and tembam okay.. Congratulationnnnns to them. :D

Err okay, so now I am so sleepy and sick. And having stomach cramps. Gaaaaaawddd. I really dont feel like going to work tonight. I just want to sleeeeeep..

From the time I got home from school just now till now, I have yet to even start on the abnormal psychology project. Ape tidak, I go home only the first thing I did is of course, SLEEP. (: And now, I cant stop sidetracking by browsing facebook from just now. Irritating eh aku.

Okay go, I should quickly get it over and done with, and email them. Lepas tu ape lagi, makan ahhhhh. Then work, okay boring. Aku perangai gemok these few days, makan macam babi. ):

Soooooo tired. Friday night went out with baby, home at 5am, slept till 1pm. Yesterday out with baby till 2+am, then work opening this morning at 9am which is equals to only three hours of sleep. Then work was shit when queue was never ending till I end work at 5pm. Which is not actually end work, because I extended till about 8+pm. Home about 9+pm, and I am so damn freaking tired, hungry and sleepy. Nevertheless, I had lots of fun with baby during the weekends. Love you many many okay!

Ok go, tomorrow morning schooling again. Too bad polytechnic students are not considered youth, if not it'll be a good day of sleeping at home. Then working at night, then schooling the next morning, and the cycle goes on and on and on............ Can't wait to get sponsorship.

Okay goodnight. I'm always looking forward to Fridays. (:

I am so lonely without my boyfriend. I am in no mood to do anything due to stress. Still can't stop thinking why life doesn't side me. I am in no mood for school, and also work. There are a lot of things in mind that I can't get. I just realised that I have not eaten today, other than bread this lunchtime. Which that is record breaking because I will usually complain to everybody that I'm hungry every two hours after I eat. I feel so depressed. I am having a test tomorrow and thursday but my id keeps telling me that I should just pack up and go to sleep. My ego is confused. And my superego is not convincing enough to make me study.

I think I should force myself to cook some maggi and then start mugging till I die.